Not Forgotten Heart Sister

To a Not Forgotten Heart Sister:

You've been weighing heavy on my heart lately. That might come as a surprise to you, seeing that I was the one who asked for space, the chasm that now sits between us. It had been growing steadily over the last year or so of our friendship. We both seemed more content to ignore it, on my part for fear of losing you. With my abrupt goodbye a lot of things went unsaid. Things I'd like to say now. I pray that you would have the heart to hear them.

I tried to be the friend you needed, not just the friend you wanted.

You told me once you wished you'd had honest friends in the past; ones that would speak their minds and tell you when they thought you were making a mistake. I promised to be that friend for you, and did my best to keep that promise. I can't and won't be sorry for that, for it is one of the few things I feel I did right at the end of our time together. But after months of trying to make you happy, keeping my opinions to myself, I'm sure it was a confusing shock to you. Those inconsistences were my fault; a by-product of not wanting to let go of our friendship.

I am truly sorry for hurting you.

It was never my intention to cause you pain. I honestly believed we would have a Ruth and Naomi life long friendship. I didn't realize that God might have other plans for us. For any and all hurts and tears felt and fallen because of me, I hope you will one day forgive me.

It wasn't easy for me to walk away.

Maybe it seemed that way. My lack of response to texts that were meant to spark conversation, the walls I put up electronically and personally were a defense. Deep down during that time, I still didn't want to lose you. The walls made it easier to follow through, but my heart was and is hurting over the loss of our close bond. The words to 'I Almost Do' echo in my heart our situation my friend.

I'm praying for you.

Every time you cross my mind, which has been more often lately. I pray for you, and your daughter, and your future husband. I pray that you are happy. That God will bless you all and bring you ever closer to Him.

You are loved. And missed.

After four years of friendship, I know you well. You are extremely loveable. Beautiful, smart, funny, creative. You deserve God's absolute best in your life. May He bless you with people who love you well. As a reflection of Himself. May He bless you with new inside jokes, lots of laughter, songs to sing and new dreams to dream. May He bless you with a Lorelai and Rory relationship with your amazing daughter, based in a mutual faith in Him. And may He assure you that these words are true. You are loved and missed and not forgotten.