SOS

  It's been a long time since I've checked in with all of you out here in cyberspace. Sorry about that. I've been through some set-backs, as well as some interesting decisions in the past month or two. Since we last talked in July, I still haven't gotten out of the basement and into the world as much as I would like, but I'm finally starting to take some steps forward. It's time for me to be brave. It's time for me to be honest.
  I screwed up. I dove into a new business without thinking, without praying about it, and spent money I had been saving on inventory. Now, I love the Mary Kay products, and I don't regret deciding to sell them, but I regret using my savings. So I'm doing something very out of the ordinary for me. I'm asking for help. Please. If you or anyone you know is in the market for top quality make up or face wash, hand cream, anything, I could use the support. I will be giving deals on anything I have on hand. I really just want to get that money back in my savings where I should have left it. I'm sure you've done something similar and regretted it. If you could find it in your heart to help me out in this regard I would be most appreciative.
  After this hasty decision, I've been trying to take more time to think things through and pray. But I've also been trying to be brave in my decisions. Step out in faith and hope... even in love (a topic that's still a little too personal for me to divulge any more information on currently.)
  So I'm looking for a second job. I even have an interview this Wednesday. I'm going to finally go in and get my license process up and running again... and plan on actually driving this time around. And hopefully, this time next year, Lord willing, I will be living in a different home in a different town. I might not be the first one in my family to move out of the family home, but I will be the first to move away from our little hometown.
  As someone very opposed to change in most regards, all of this is a little terrifying to me. Change has very rarely been good for me. I have so much hope that it will be this time around. While the fear and doubts still sneak in from time to time, there's also peace and hope and joy in this plan. And I'll have a full year to think and pray and move forward wherever it is that God is leading me... Honestly I really do think he's leading me to building a new home with an amazing heart sister and her equally wonderful daughter.
  I know that this will take time, and a lot more money than I have currently. I'm not quite as naive as everyone thinks I am. I will have to do a lot of saving up. This whole process is going to take strength, patience, and faith. I know that. I'm finally ready to step out, not knowing how everything will work out, but knowing that all things work for good for those who love Him.
  So aside from asking for help at the beginning of this post, I'd also like to ask for your prayers, your support and your encouragement. I hope you're ready to take this journey with me this next year. It's been a long time coming, and I can't think of anyone else I'd rather have with me as I move forward. Unless you know Zac Efron. In that case, give him a call for me? :P Thank you so much in advance!
<3 Kayla