Wouldn't it be nice to live in a fairy tale? To be part of a story that is so universally known that you know exactly how it's going to go from beginning to end? And wouldn't that be just the most boring existence in the world?
I'm a Disney kid. I grew up watching The Little Mermaid and Beauty and the Beast, and still to this day am absolutely in love with all things related to them, but I've been realizing something. I don't want to live a fairy tale life. (Although I would love to play the version of Belle in Once Upon A Time, if for some random reason that opportunity came up. :P)
But I don't want perfect; I don't want a castle; I don't want Prince Charming. I want honest. I want straight forward truth about everything in every relationship. I want openness about imperfections and short comings, and balance and prayer to help me move forward and change for the better. I want a home that I feel comfortable in, where I can let my hair down and be myself and not second guess everything I do or say. I don't want to wonder if I belong here or not. I want to feel, soul deep, that this is the place for me to be. I want a guy that is real! Someone that I know I can argue with but will still apologize (maybe even apologize first if such a man exists) and still love me, possibly even more because getting over that fight means that we've moved forward in our relationship. And once we've moved forward, I don't want to look back.
I don't want perfect, because I know I'm so far from that title that it's out of range. I don't want to set myself up for failure before I even start because I have these fanciful, childlike, naive notions about life and love. I want to look at my favourite Disney movies and see the important lessons, not the unrealistic expectations.
From Snow White, I want to learn to accept people because of their differences. From Cinderella, I want to learn that no matter where I start, I can reach for my dreams. From Aurora, I want to learn that I am special, even if no one else knows it or recognizes it. From Ariel, I want to learn to find my voice and use it. From Pocahontas, I want to learn to see the world for all it's beauty. From Mulan, I want to learn that girls can do anything boys can do (and possibly better). And from Belle, (my favourite Princess, because she taught me that girls can be beautiful and smart), I want to remember not to judge so quickly, but to take a second look at people and see their potential always.
I want a 'human tale' (to quote Batty from Fern Gully... although I doubt we share the same meaning on this). I want a life that is imperfectly human, but touched by God's grace and blessings. Not a perfect fairy tale that has no chance of existence.
Sadly, this 'Princess' has some work to do in the basement of her 'castle'. :P Looking forward to when it's done, so that this castle feels more like home. Hope this finds you all well on your way to your own wonderfully blessed human tale. :D
<3 Kayla
2 comments:
Beautifully written and I agree with every word you wrote. <3
Miss you!
I agree . . . also this:
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- LM
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