Questions? Question mark?

That was just for you Ran.  I don't think you read my blog at all, but I know you enjoy when I do something because you started it.  I do find it a bit redundant to say 'question mark', and as I've told you before the voice octave going up when you speak indicates a question, but it makes me smile and think of you.  And I've been dealing with quite a few questions the past few days, so it fits rather well.
My mind has been bombarded with questions lately.  Whether they are of my own making, or other people questioning my decisions and choices, they've been looming closer than I like.  I usually just turn up my music and try to ignore some of them, but perhaps I should deal with them and make their exit a little more permanent.
I've finally come to terms with the fact that I have to re-write my book, even if not everyone else has.  I was aware when I typed out the second draft that there would most likely be a third.  I didn't think that I'd be changing and adding as much as I will be, but I knew that I would be going back to fix what needed to be fixed.  It's not that I'm afraid to finish my novel.  That's not why I'm re-writing.  I'm doing it because when God showed me what he wanted me to do with Cassie's story, I saw how much better it could be!  Is it a lot of work, and a tad stressful for me to have to go back through the whole story and make the new plot points flow?  Uh yeah.  Haha.  But I could not in good conscience send out my manuscript as is, because I already know it's not as amazing as it could be, and sending it to an agent or publisher would not only misrepresent me, it would misrepresent the quality of my writing.  That is why I'm re-writing, and that is why I know I have to re-write.  That isn't to say that I don't have doubts about it sometimes.  You can obviously see that from past posts, but I'm going to push through, and I'm going to finish my third draft by the end of the year at the latest.  So please don't worry about me... you can pray for me though. :)
I've also had some questions about the basement and what to spend money on or not spend money on.  I don't know why, but for some reason I feel irresponsible spending my own money!  Even though I save and tithe, I feel bad spending money... even though that's technically what it's there for.  I'm just going to have to come to terms with the fact that the basement will need a couch, and I'll need to spend money to get one of those.  Maybe it's just because everything is coming together a lot faster than I thought it would, so I'm parting with a lot of money at once...  Plus Grandma keeps asking a million questions about what I'm doing with my decorating, and where I have to put things and so on.  For those of you who have personally had to deal with a session of Grandma's 20 questions, you know how frustrating it can become.  There are very few things I completely trust myself on, but after growing up on watching Trading Spaces every Saturday, I'm quite confident in my decorating abilities... and my tolerance level for those questions is getting thinner by the day.  I'd say pray for some patience for me, but there's no need to add more testing to what I'm dealing with currently. :)  Now if I can just spend my own money.
My last question from the last few days?  What on earth did I do to deserve to be so blessed by those around me?  Uncle Kevin is a God-send!  I swear he is.  He almost single-handedly put up the wall and a good majority of the dry wall that has to go up in two days!  He's patient, answering all of my questions, explaining the little ways that even I can manage to help.  Randy, Ryan and even Dad have been a rather big help too... the little ways (and the big) that they help on their free days remind me that I'm not doing this alone, even if it does feel like it sometimes.  Plus all of the amazing friends I have that lift me up when I'm feeling down, pray for me constantly, read my rants and ramblings here... You are such wonderful gifts, all of you.  I don't know why I'm so amazingly blessed, but I guess that's one question I don't mind not having an answer to.
<3 Kayla