Oh the full circle...

I honestly hadn't planned on writing today.  I had, in fact, shut off my computer for the night.  But when things come so full circle like they did just now, I feel compelled to share the fact that my God is a crazy and weird God, who has the ability to show me things just when I need them.
Today turned out almost nothing like I expected it too.  I thought that today I would be able to buy my materials for the basement, see about getting all the clutter out of there (today if possible), and get a good chunk of editing on my book done.  Exactly the opposite of what actually happened.  Although, I did do a bit of editing, but every time I sat down to chip away at the chapters, I'd get really tired, or stressed out... I went for another walk when my chest started tightening, and God managed to breathe a little more peace into me, along with a few more ideas for the new direction my book is going...
Then I came back home, and after eating supper and running errands, I got back to editing and all the questions started up again.  What am I doing?  Why am I changing so much?  What is Cass think/feeling/saying?  How do I make this work?  What if I ruin it?  What if it was never good to begin with?  What if I can't do this?
So, I pushed as many of the questions off as I could, and managed to make it to chapter ten before calling it quits for the day.  But I just felt so drained... I needed a pick me up.  So I went to God's Heart for You: Embracing Your True Worth as a Woman, a devotional that has been patiently waiting for me to finish the one Eva and I are currently on.  (I know Eva... I can't even stop skimming and skipping ahead when it comes to devos.  I'm a hopeless case on this front I tell ya.)
Want to know the weird part? The part that made everything today come full circle?  The second chapter of this book, directly connects to the chapter Eva and I did this week in the What Women Want devo.  It's all been about how we are 'fearfully and wonderfully made'.  Reading that earlier today when I was doing this weeks questions for WWW, I had decided that Psalm 139 was going to be part of my book, because Cass has issues with people really knowing her, God included.  The really really weird part?  The page before the chapter I started on, was about acceptance.  The author, Holley Gerth, ends each of her short chapters with something she's written about the subject of the chapter, and they both spoke to me, and to the heart of what I want Cass and I to learn from my writing Cass's story.  I thought I'd share:
God's Heart for You by Holley Gerth: Chapter 1 Acceptance:

Hey you,

the one wondering if you're enough,

if you'd be loved if anyone really knew you -

turn your heart this way for a moment,

then lean in and listen close...

Acceptance?

You've got it.

You don't have to look any further

than the hands of the One who made you,

the heart of the One who loves you.

You're welcomed, held,

cherished just as you are

and encouraged to grow

into all you'll become.

So hold your heart and head high;

look the world in the eyes and say...

"I'm His. I'm loved.

I'm already accepted today."

I'm already loving this devo and I'm not really even reading it yet. :)  I highly recommend it to everyone though.  Holly is quickly becoming one of my favourite inspirational writers and her short chapters can pack a powerful punch when needed.  Like tonight.  I hope this spoke to you like it did me.  Thanks for reading this crazy long post.  Much love.
<3 Kayla