Taking myself off hold.

It's probably a little odd to think of life like that, but that's how I feel... Like for some reason I've put myself and my life and my writing on hold; like I'm on the phone to the world and no one is picking up.  Well, no more of that.  I've said it before, and I'll say it again: Standing still sucks!  Besides the elevator music is starting to get to me. :P  (I find it odd that I just quoted my own writing... for those of you who've read my manuscript, you know what I'm talking about.)
I've taken probably a good week or two off from my writing.  I tried to edit a little bit on Friday, but couldn't do it.  I just got frustrated and wondered how on earth I'm going to fix everything I want to, and walked away in order to protect my book from the garbage can or flying out of my window.  (Although I'll admit, the idea of throwing paper into the wind sounds very liberating... but it'd be messy and I'd be the one who'd have to clean it up.)
Maybe the idea of having to have my entire manuscript ready by November 15th overwhelmed me, and subconsciously is why I'm avoiding editing and re-writing.  Ridiculous I know, but my mind is an interesting place to navigate.  But today I realized that's not the only writing contest in the world.  I actually found several on the Seekerville blog today that I may consider entering.  (That's a great blog for any of you that are interested in pursuing writing inspirational fiction by the way.)  I don' t have to start with the biggest contest I find, but I do have to start getting myself out there and getting used to critique and possibly rejection.  I'm okay with the possibility of both (at least for the moment).
So I sat down last night and wrote a synopsis for my novel, got to the heart of the plot and Cass as a character, and I think that helped push me back on the right track.  So starting today, I'm back to my passion: my writing.  Which is what I'm planning on working on until supper... I guess that means I should get off my blog eh?  Plus, my volume for my music is being really weird and changing itself.  Haha.  Please feel free to send up a prayer or two for me in the next few weeks, and don't be afraid to double check that I'm getting my work done.  Lord knows I need someone to help keep me accountable.  :)
<3 Kayla