Hope and a Future...

Yep, that sounds like exactly what I need.  You see, last night I made a decision.  I've been going back and forth trying to figure out whether to work on a new book, and ignore the one I had 'finished' and had people looking at for awhile longer, or dive right into editing and wait until I was looking for a publisher to start on the next book. 
Want to know what one I chose?  I chose the one that I think has to be the most terrifying to me: edit and re-write.  I hate the thought of re-writing, I won't lie to you.  Makes me think that everything I've written up to this point is no good, and I should just scrap it and start again.  (For those of you who have spent most of my unpublished writing career trying to convince me that I'm wonderful at what I do, and those of you who read my recent draft of Why Wish?, and 'loved it', don't worry - I am not and will not scrap what I have.)  But I do feel like God is asking me to add a more serious undertone, and some more serious issues with Cass (my main character).
The thought came to me last night, and honestly I was scared at the possibility that it was what God wanted me to add.  My chest tightened; I got light headed; I think I even hyperventilated a little bit.  Which is a good indication that it's what He wants me to do... because the very scared human part of me wants to avoid it like the plague.  I mean, what if I completely screw up the humor or the romance of the story by adding this?  And I'm going to have to change some of the back-story to make it all fit...
But I'm doing it.  I'm starting the long journey of this re-write, even if I am still shaking in my proverbial boots a bit.  I'm just going to cling to two things that I find relevant to my stories.  I always pick a bible verse and a song that I feel capture the plot and characters and emotions of the story.  For Cass, the verses have always been Jeremiah 29:11-13, some of my favourite verses: "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.  Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you.  You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart."  (Which also just happened to be in my bible read this morning, oddly enough.)  Now the song for her story has changed in the past twenty-four hours.  I was thinking it would be a Taylor Swift song, but on the days where I feel down, where I need to believe in that hope and that future, I go to Lady A.  Please feel free to check out the song One Day You Will: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IEyes40uG6w  And maybe send up a few prayers when you think of me during the next two or three weeks.
Hope I could give you some hope of your own today.  I know I needed it.  And look at that, the sun is trying to sneak out from behind the clouds now.  Perhaps it will be a good day after all.  :)
<3 Kayla