Well it turns out that my impossible project was in fact impossible haha. In fact, it managed to block me again. Apparently my imagination doesn't perform well under pressure. Or Cass doesn't like me trying to rush through the retelling of her story. Probably a combination of both. You know what they say... the spirit is willing, but the flesh is easily distracted... or something like that.
On the upside, there are a few other contests this month that because of my day or two of productivity, that I am closer to being able to enter... and for all of you who have offered to read my manuscript again once it's done, I'm also much closer to getting that out to you next week. :)
What I'm dealing with currently is my equal love and hate with changes I'm making. Everything makes so much sense!! It fits, it seems to flow (if I don't over criticize too much)... but it's exhausting trying to juggle everything around, include lines and scenes I love in different spots, sometimes with different people. I hate that it's been so tough for me. Perhaps I've just been around this project for far too long... but I'm determined to see it through by next week one way or another.
I just realized that once I'm done, that means that I'm done telling Cassie's story... I'm done trying to figure out how she's feeling, how she will react to things... Well that is a mildly depressing thought. I mean, I get upset when book series or TV series that I love end... I can see it being much worse with my own work. She's been living in my head for so long, it'll be weird to have to tell her to be quiet so I can talk to her friends. (I know that sounds a bit crazy, but such is my mind unfortunately haha)
At least with this first completed manuscript will come several other firsts: first query letter and synopsis; first contest entered; first inquiry of agents and editors; first rejection letter (most likely); and hopefully things like first contract signed; first book cover; first book signing; first reader fans... So while endings and impossibilities try to get me down, I guess I still have a lot to hope for and look forward to, Lord willing.
So this might be the first win for impossibility, but it was only for this battle. I plan on winning the war! Stay strong in whatever battle you're in too friends. Show me that stubborn streak. I have a soft spot for them, and for you.
<3 Kayla
P.S. On a completely different note, ladies don't forget to let me know if you're interested in the Valentine's Day dessert and movie outing. It'd be nice to get some of us singles together. :)
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